L4D2

zzzzz

seriously.

I sark at this game.

this game basically give me some problems which includes.

a)feels like punching those fella who are so stingy with their health packs.

b)feels like punching car alarm ringer/NORMAL infected hunter

c)feels like punching witch disturber

d)feels like punching team killer. as in TEAM killer. not high ranking as in zombie killer but...yeah, TEAM killer.

e)feels like punching gives me headache

but one thing good is that you need to work really hard to play through out this mission.

but anyway

i still sark at it.

whatever.

Hallucination and Habitual Since She Was Gone

====Note====

I'm writing back the first few month experience during she was gone.

what has passed should let it go isn't it?

===========

Just realize that it's been a year since she was gone.

Time flies when you didn't realize it, doesn't it?

during the first few months after the separation.

I woke up the other morning and find myself having this habit of sleeping left side of the bed where she used to sleep on the right, where it is near the wall, which preventing from kicking her down the bed during bed time.

Learned tried not to turn off the alarm clock during the first time the alarm goes off, and hitting the snooze button instead. To make sure I am able to wake up the second time after the 10 minutes snooze timer.

Leaving a seat between my friends and me on my left hand side when we went out for meals.

Carried two glasses out to make coffee during the morning.

The empty side in the closet where it used to fill with female attires isn't filled up yet.

The glass for tooth brush is too big for a single tooth brush. And it is still the same.

Walking by the places where we used to spend during the night and the corridor where we used to walk. The lakeside social ground where we used to walk there too. But this time, alone.

A room which was dirty and messy then but is clean and tidy now, but lacking a female's touch.

The room feels quiet as there is no one else complaining, about my smoking, gaming and other bad habits.

Although everything has changed since then.

My closet is filled with my clothes. tidily packed and separated between clothes, pants, and so on.

I'm sleeping nicely, rolling around the bed during the night, and able to see my pillow and boaster being kicked down the bed next morning.

I'm enjoying the time where able to look at the lakeside and the garden alone.

Unable to wake up for the morning class but there's Eric and Sushi called me over the phone, angrily shouting over the phone to wake me up. (Trust me, this works way better than an alarm clock)

well, every I've been double up for my caffeine intake. Well, that's for the rich taste of coffee blending in the mouth. Enjoying my coffee time slowly and enjoying as well.

Got used not to leave a seat between meal friend as well. Because he had a gf now. :)

It was a sweet moment then, but now it is just a past tense.

And I am moving on well as well :)

Jeremy's Philosophy Of The Day

Enjoy the process of drinking hot coffee slowly.
Because this way you are able enjoy the taste of Hot, Warm and Cold coffee.
The hot sensation of the beginning sip, the mild temperature half way the process, and the cold taste reminds you the sensation when the coffee is hot.
Just like in a relationship.
Take your time.
Suspense the thrill.
That's how a relationship last forever.
Are you caffeine'd?

LDR

So what does this LDR represents?

Long Distance Relationship i'd say.

as well as it represents.

Long Distance Ruins~

so well.

a couple friend of mine

(which mean i know both the bf and the gf)

broke up after a 3 years of relationship.

well the girl study as the same place as i do.

in Kampar, Perak of course.

and the guy's from my housing area.

Subang Jaya, Selangor.

then one day.

he messaged me over sms and sounds so emotional.

so i figured that something musta been wrong.

but of course.

didn't pay much attention,

so i test the girl instead.

and from there i found out that they have broken up.

well later on this girl told the guy that she had found a guy that she love over here.

and going to club with him yesterday night as at 10th April 2010.

so obviously the bf go emotional and all.

And yes,

back to Jeremy the Relationship Counselor.

finally chilled him down(I guess, after a long chat and he stop replying)

Not to say that LDR is bad or what

but.

It requires more than just Love to get the Bonds tight as it is.

effort, patience, trust and so on goes the list where it can go as far as it can.

whatever,

but i WILL not start a LDR.

it sucks seriously.

In My Opinion.

what for having a relationship that you can't be with the person by your side when you need him or her?

it's is something like DATING VIRTUALLY!

come one man, think about it!

Which of the following sounds absurd to you:

a) Nanotechnology

b) Cyborg

c) Jeremy is Fat

d) Long Distance Relationship.

It is absolutely bonding yourself to something that is unstable.

You don't know what's happening over the other end.

You aren't there for here.

You are not DATING her.

and of course this happens vice versa.

you may be a good person but who knows she found someone better over there while you aren't there to compete with the 3rd party?

obviously she/he won't able to tell you that,

"OMG darling, i found someone that treats me good over here, and not to mention that he/she is SUPER handsome like someone from DBSK/Tiara(or which ever boy/girl band you think is pretty)" at your face, right? Obviously such thing only happens over TVB drama.

WHAT IF she/he didn't tell you at all?

(be glad that she told you, why?read on. remember this is just an assumption. nothing to do with the real person. just came out from my out-of-the-world imaginary power.)

she might be fucking someone right behind your back?

making all those love bites like how she did it to your days back?

waking up at another guy's bed. NAKED. and their sweat sink in to the bed.

Used condoms in the dustbin.

her underwear throwing all over his place?

Yada...yada...yada...blah...blah...blah...

without telling you about it?

and where were you?

still waiting for her coming back to your arms.

STOP DREAMING MAN!

another delay is another pinch of salt sprayed on your wounds.

just without your realizing how hurt it is.

but the pains will one shot all come to you once you know about it.

It MIGHT kill you right on the spot. Trust me it is THAT pain.

So ending with a word of mine.

"Love can be so fragile when it is in a long distance relationship."

Bah!!!!

Guess what?

Yes. I got pre-barred from taking the final examinations. AGAIN.

this is OBVIOUSLY the office problem.

First, beginning of the semester, they send my registration 2 week after the study semester starts.

It's okay.

I can manage with the first 2 weeks of studies later on.

AND NOW

they pre-barred me. AGAIN.

same time every semester.

owh well.

Need to write a unbarred letter and a interview with Mr Felix, the faculty head of department.

On Wednesday, 2,40pm.

owh well

that's it for today.

Bo Beep Bo Beep. Out.

Fuh.

I tell you what.

Today.

I was the only representative from T18 (and this is my tutorial class number)

to attend English Tutorial Class.

luckily, there's Kah Mun and her girls from T19 join the class.

If not that will be like attending 1 to 1 PHD lesson.

anyway.

the English lesson is kinda stress free.

has some quiz and informal chat with the tutor.

Well. Of course that's not the end of my day. duh.

Jeremy will NEVER have dull day(for now. boredom will kill me. real hard)

Help Ms Joey Chew with design for her blogger interface.

hopefully that she will be satisfied with it.

anyway, here is her blogspot add :

http://tehjoey03.blogspot.com/

of course there's similarity between hers and mine.

hope that she will love it haha!

but if she is not satisfied.

that can't be blamed.

tell me what can you do in less than 1 hour time about blogging interface where:

merging both copyright material and non in to a blog.

(It is not as easy as you think. for a computer idiot like me)

editing copyrighted material in to something unique.

(yeap. i even edit the body background contains her name in twilight font. cool eh?)

and well the others is for you guys to explore.

good night

Bo Beep Bo Beep out.

The Subway Of Life

If you ask me,

what can "The Human Life" be put in a moment.

I would say that Human Life is like getting on a subway or a train during a busy morning.

Before you are born, you charged in to the train just like million of others of peoples on the train platform. Only those who are lucky is able to enter the train. Of course, there's people who are stepping out from the train as well. As we know that trains are getting bigger these days but yet it still can't get hold of these much peoples. The world is over populating.

Inside the train there is loads of unknown peoples to you. Some will approach you and some won't.

you may find someone giving up his or her seats for the old, young, handicapped and pregnant. some however don't. Just as you can find kind hearted peoples everyday.

It is up to you to get to know them anyway.

For those people you meet on train, some have good intention on the other hand, some don't. Others may just stay Switzerland, aka remain neutral.

Maybe you're lucky that you will find someone pleasing to you on the train. For most of the case, yes you will. And maybe you will leave him or her anyway for another better companion.

when you reached your destination, you step out from the train, leaving those you peoples you know behind. And that is the end of your train riding journey. Of course, shit happens as maybe someone from behind pushed you out from the train accidentally. But that too, your train riding journey ends there. Unless you get to push back in. That is your will to come back.

Some might have extraordinary fun and adventurous train riding experience, some for those who just prefer to be alone, of course, just another dull train ride.

So how is your train riding experience till today?

Out From The Deep

We came out from the deep,

To learn to love,

To learn how to live,

To avoid the mistakes we made,

To help and understand but not to kill,

It takes many lives till we succeed,

To clear the debts of many hundread years,

That's why we are here...

她拒绝了他100次，第101次，他拒绝了她！！！（看完不后悔！）

昨天，他拒绝了她。

　　一直以来，她以为他总会在她的身后跟随，不论她什么时候需要他。因为他说过，他会等她一辈子的。可是，他食言了。

　　她和他是大学时候的同学。她16岁上大学，比他小两岁。在学校里，她总是小妹妹，和很多男生关系都很好。当然，和他特别要好

　　她确实是没有想过男女之情的，可能是因为她还小。直到那一天，他突然面红耳赤地递给她一张电影票，期期艾艾地说，这是一部爱情片。真是老土，老土得可爱。不过她还是直截了当地拒绝他了。她说他不是她喜欢的类型，不会选择他的，但是他没有退却。

　　接下来的时间里，他无时不刻地出现在她身边，关心她，呵护她，什么事情，在她要做之前他已经抢先帮她做了。可是她告诉他，他不是她喜欢的类型，不要再继续下去了。他说，他会一直等下去，直到她同意的那一天。

　　大学毕业后，他们俩都被保送本校的研究生，不在同一个专业。研究生期间的所有实验难题，基本上都是他一手包办了，连她的导师都和他的导师开玩笑：我那个师女婿呢？最近怎么没有看见他了？

　　5年的研究生一下子过去了，她也到了 25岁的年纪。也确实考虑过选择他的。但是终究没有开口。为什么呢……可能还是觉得有些不完美。他总是一副邋里邋遢的样子，头发乱乱的，不修边幅。还有就是太瘦，虽然在南方人中不算太矮，却还不到一百斤，她还是比较喜欢运动型的男孩子。她直接了当地跟他说过她不选择他的原因，一向健谈的他沉默了好久。那时她倒是希望他能够听了这句话离开，但是他接着说：“我是对你最好的，这辈子都是。”

　　博士毕业后，她留校当老师，他选择了出国。当时同学们给他送行，她没有伤感，反而有一种如释重负的感觉。那个在她身边围绕了7年的人终于走了，她不用再喋喋不休地说，“我不喜欢你这个类型，你放弃吧”这样的话了。

　　很快她交了一个男朋友，他比她大6岁，家境很好，在他父亲的公司上班，当了一个财务经理，一个月可以收入过万，房子车子都有了。

　　可是交往深入下去，她就发现了差距。她说的话，他总是嗯嗯嗯的，半懂不懂。她的意思，他总是不能理解。这段感情断断续续维持了一年半，终于还是分手了。这时候，她才记起那个总是微笑地站在她身后，什么事情都不用她操心的他来。

　　从小她都是优等生，考上的也是最好的大学之一。本科时是直博生保送，博士时是优秀博士毕业。所以她觉得身边的人都应该是这样子的，不用她费神地表达，可是她错了。

　　苦闷中她迎来了她的28岁生日。28岁的女人似乎就给人另类的感觉了，虽然照镜子她没有什么自卑和苍老的感觉，但是父母亲和朋友们都开始为她着急了。于是她开始了一轮一轮地相亲。

　　那些相亲的对象，要么有钱而粗俗，要么木讷而迟钝，还有就是唯唯诺诺不知所云。一个一个，都只让她更加想起天边的那个他来。那个睿智、懒散、关切、幽默、善辩的他。

　　在她副教授评审述职会上，突然她发现了他。坐在台下，眼睛还是那么明亮，人也还是那么瘦。头发看起来还是脏脏的，拿着一支笔，坐在前排微笑着看着她。唯一的变化，似乎就是苍老了一点，不再像那个没事就要和人家滔滔不绝争辩的年轻人了。

　　原来他已经被学校作为人才引进回来了，不在她们系，但是是一个学院。她还在报副教授的时候，学校已经答应给他正教授的职位了。所以他有资格享受了一套不大不小的福利房，在这个寸土寸金的城市，已经算是不错了。

　　他装修房子的时候她经常去他家给他参谋，似乎又回到了四年前的日子，他给她端水，削水果，给她回答工作中的种种问题。

　　那一天，他房子装修完了，邀她去吃饭。只有他们两个人，晚上的灯光很美。她知道他要说什么，有点期待，又有点紧张。果然他说，房子有了，缺一个新娘。

　　她装作没有听懂，其实她是希望他继续四年前那样的直白，直截了当地说：这辈子我会让你知道我是对你最好的。但是他没有。他只是喟了一口气，什么也没有说。

　　送她下楼的时候，他竟然握了握她的手，很紧很紧的，握得她有些生疼。幸好他很快就放开了。然后招呼也没有打就走回去了。

　　以后的日子就忽然尴尬起来，他碰见她也只是淡淡的，点个头打个招呼。校车上也不和她坐一起。等车时也不和她说话。她的硕士生答辩时请他来当委员，他也推脱了。

　　终于她看见他和别的女孩子在一起，说说笑笑的，她心里确实酸酸的，莫名其妙的还有些愤怒。她最好的朋友劝她说，他大三开始追她，她就算倒过去追他一回又有什么？都要快三十岁的人了。

　　可是，当她鼓起平生最大的勇气和他说的时候，他居然面不改色地说，“我已经有女朋友了！”

　　她也听说过他交女朋友了，但是怎么可能这么快呢？从她十九岁到现在，这么多年的感情，难道他一下子忘记了吗？他不是说过等她一辈子的吗？

　　昨天晚上她哭了一晚上。这么多年来她从没有这么哭过。难道男人真的这么容易转移感情吗？真的吗？

我之所以把这篇文章放在这是想提醒自己也提醒看过此文章的人：珍惜身边的人，尊重别人的感情。每个人都有自己的另一半，别因为他（她）有缺点而冷落她（他）因为他（她）爱你才让自己的缺点暴露在你面前，因为他（她）想爱是可以承载一切的，别让他（她）等的太久，当心死了，所有的一切也都结束了！珍惜你爱的人。

请耐心一点将这个很短的故事看完……

一个朋友说，追她很久的那个男孩今天结婚了。

我说，你想怎么样呢？人家喜欢了你那么久都无动于衷……

她说，去参加了婚礼。新娘很漂亮，新郎也很帅。好像第一次觉得他也蛮有魅力的，怎么当初就没发觉呢？

她说，原本觉得自己从来没有爱上他，

但在新娘新郎交换戒指的那一刻，她的心狠狠疼了一下。

她说，最难过的，不是你爱的人不爱你，而是爱你很多年的那个人，转身离去。

当看见那个说爱你一辈子，等你一辈子的人，给另外一个女孩子的无名指带上戒指的时候，你能听到自己心碎的声音。

今天的主角不是你，不管她是不是灰姑娘，今天的公主都不是你。

他在全封闭训练的时候，为了能给她打电话，他都要走很远很远的路，去公用电话亭。

冬天飘着雪，很冷。

她却还不耐烦的说，干嘛没事总给我打电话？

她不知道他在那边已经冻的不行了。

他只是想听听她的声音。

现在，她想起这些来，脸上还是会洋溢着幸福的微笑。

然后定过神来，看着眼前这对新人……

新郎依旧是他，但是他的甜言蜜语海誓山盟，却再也不是为她所说。

有多少人一辈子承诺爱一个人又付诸行动了呢？

当努力了好多年依然没有结果的时候，谁还会一直等你呢？

终于明白，我们都能勇敢的面对——你爱的人不爱你，

但是，谁都无力面对—— 一个爱你很久很久的人转身离去。

那种骄傲，那种幸福，荡然无存。

请珍惜身边默默爱你的人。

用心呵护和把握每一份真爱。

不要对那些真诚付出的爱意熟视无睹，

不要等突然意识到失去时才后悔莫及。

或许，当他有一天真的离开了，

你会发现，

真正离不开彼此的，

是你，

不是他……

几米说: 当你喜欢我的时候，

我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你,

当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,

是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,

我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,

错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……

但是，请允许我说这样自私的话，

多年后，

你若未娶，

我还未嫁，

那，

我们能不能在一起？？

I found this over the facebook shared notes anyway.

but is it just me or these days this kind of love notes is flying around in facebook?

Happy Easter Everyone!!!

How is your weekend everybody?

Mine is basically running around here and there

and not to mentioned that running around Penang for good FOODS!

din't take much picture of myself but have tonnes of Scenery Pictures!

All of them are from The Pagoda Tower anyway.

didn't really visited there since young or maybe there is but i ought to forget it.

Anyway.

Happy Easter Day :)

Why Condom Comes in Pack or 3s, 6s and 12s

A man walks into a drug store with his 8-year old son.

They happen to walk by the condom display, and

the boy asks, “What are these, Dad?"

To which the man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms son. Men use them to have safe sex."

"Oh I see," replied the boy pensively. "Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school."

He looks over the display and picks up a package of 3 and asks, "Why are there 3 in this package?"

The dad replies, "Those are for high school boys, one for Friday, one for Saturday, and one for Sunday."

"Cool" says the boy.

He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for?"

"Those are for college men," the dad answers, "TWO for Friday, TWO for Saturday, and TWO for Sunday."

"WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack.

With a sigh and a tear in his eye, the dad replied, "Those are for married men. One for January, one for February, one for March......."

Found this on Facebook anyway.

Haha!

A Notice For Yourself

记住，

改变自己不是因为别人，更不是为了那位不再珍惜自己的（他/她）。

既然（他/她)已经错过了爱(你/妳)的机会, 更不再在乎（你/妳）对（他/她）的爱，那就别在错下去了。

（你/妳）必须比别人更爱（你/你）自己，别被别人利用了。

last blog update before i head to out station.

Catch ya all people on Sunday then.

Have a blast weekend ahead :)

Qingming Festival

Yerp that's right.

It's this time same time every year.

so i'm heading back to my Father's place for this event.

Won't be around during the weekends till Sunday Afternoon perhaps?

so everybody else enjoy your weekend ya!

April Fool !!! 愚人节 !!!

愚人节是在365天之中和心仪对象表白最安全的一天，

万一心仪对象脸色一变，

可以和他/她说:

“愚人节快乐！”

April Fool would be the safest day to confess towards the person you like.

Just in case that he or she doesn't show the expected response,

you can change to an April Fool joke

:)