L4D2

zzzzz

seriously.

I sark at this game.

this game basically give me some problems which includes.

a)feels like punching those fella who are so stingy with their health packs.

b)feels like punching car alarm ringer/NORMAL infected hunter

c)feels like punching witch disturber

d)feels like punching team killer. as in TEAM killer. not high ranking as in zombie killer but...yeah, TEAM killer.

e)feels like punching gives me headache

but one thing good is that you need to work really hard to play through out this mission.

but anyway

i still sark at it.

whatever.

Hallucination and Habitual Since She Was Gone

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I'm writing back the first few month experience during she was gone.

what has passed should let it go isn't it?

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Just realize that it's been a year since she was gone.

Time flies when you didn't realize it, doesn't it?

during the first few months after the separation.

I woke up the other morning and find myself having this habit of sleeping left side of the bed where she used to sleep on the right, where it is near the wall, which preventing from kicking her down the bed during bed time.

Learned tried not to turn off the alarm clock during the first time the alarm goes off, and hitting the snooze button instead. To make sure I am able to wake up the second time after the 10 minutes snooze timer.

Leaving a seat between my friends and me on my left hand side when we went out for meals.

Carried two glasses out to make coffee during the morning.

The empty side in the closet where it used to fill with female attires isn't filled up yet.

The glass for tooth brush is too big for a single tooth brush. And it is still the same.

Walking by the places where we used to spend during the night and the corridor where we used to walk. The lakeside social ground where we used to walk there too. But this time, alone.

A room which was dirty and messy then but is clean and tidy now, but lacking a female's touch.

The room feels quiet as there is no one else complaining, about my smoking, gaming and other bad habits.

Although everything has changed since then.

My closet is filled with my clothes. tidily packed and separated between clothes, pants, and so on.

I'm sleeping nicely, rolling around the bed during the night, and able to see my pillow and boaster being kicked down the bed next morning.

I'm enjoying the time where able to look at the lakeside and the garden alone.

Unable to wake up for the morning class but there's Eric and Sushi called me over the phone, angrily shouting over the phone to wake me up. (Trust me, this works way better than an alarm clock)

well, every I've been double up for my caffeine intake. Well, that's for the rich taste of coffee blending in the mouth. Enjoying my coffee time slowly and enjoying as well.

Got used not to leave a seat between meal friend as well. Because he had a gf now. :)

It was a sweet moment then, but now it is just a past tense.

And I am moving on well as well :)

Jeremy's Philosophy Of The Day

Enjoy the process of drinking hot coffee slowly.
Because this way you are able enjoy the taste of Hot, Warm and Cold coffee.
The hot sensation of the beginning sip, the mild temperature half way the process, and the cold taste reminds you the sensation when the coffee is hot.
Just like in a relationship.
Take your time.
Suspense the thrill.
That's how a relationship last forever.
Are you caffeine'd?

LDR

So what does this LDR represents?

Long Distance Relationship i'd say.

as well as it represents.

Long Distance Ruins~

so well.

a couple friend of mine

(which mean i know both the bf and the gf)

broke up after a 3 years of relationship.

well the girl study as the same place as i do.

in Kampar, Perak of course.

and the guy's from my housing area.

Subang Jaya, Selangor.

then one day.

he messaged me over sms and sounds so emotional.

so i figured that something musta been wrong.

but of course.

didn't pay much attention,

so i test the girl instead.

and from there i found out that they have broken up.

well later on this girl told the guy that she had found a guy that she love over here.

and going to club with him yesterday night as at 10th April 2010.

so obviously the bf go emotional and all.

And yes,

back to Jeremy the Relationship Counselor.

finally chilled him down(I guess, after a long chat and he stop replying)

Not to say that LDR is bad or what

but.

It requires more than just Love to get the Bonds tight as it is.

effort, patience, trust and so on goes the list where it can go as far as it can.

whatever,

but i WILL not start a LDR.

it sucks seriously.

In My Opinion.

what for having a relationship that you can't be with the person by your side when you need him or her?

it's is something like DATING VIRTUALLY!

come one man, think about it!

Which of the following sounds absurd to you:

a) Nanotechnology

b) Cyborg

c) Jeremy is Fat

d) Long Distance Relationship.

It is absolutely bonding yourself to something that is unstable.

You don't know what's happening over the other end.

You aren't there for here.

You are not DATING her.

and of course this happens vice versa.

you may be a good person but who knows she found someone better over there while you aren't there to compete with the 3rd party?

obviously she/he won't able to tell you that,

"OMG darling, i found someone that treats me good over here, and not to mention that he/she is SUPER handsome like someone from DBSK/Tiara(or which ever boy/girl band you think is pretty)" at your face, right? Obviously such thing only happens over TVB drama.

WHAT IF she/he didn't tell you at all?

(be glad that she told you, why?read on. remember this is just an assumption. nothing to do with the real person. just came out from my out-of-the-world imaginary power.)

she might be fucking someone right behind your back?

making all those love bites like how she did it to your days back?

waking up at another guy's bed. NAKED. and their sweat sink in to the bed.

Used condoms in the dustbin.

her underwear throwing all over his place?

Yada...yada...yada...blah...blah...blah...

without telling you about it?

and where were you?

still waiting for her coming back to your arms.

STOP DREAMING MAN!

another delay is another pinch of salt sprayed on your wounds.

just without your realizing how hurt it is.

but the pains will one shot all come to you once you know about it.

It MIGHT kill you right on the spot. Trust me it is THAT pain.

So ending with a word of mine.

"Love can be so fragile when it is in a long distance relationship."

Bah!!!!

Guess what?

Yes. I got pre-barred from taking the final examinations. AGAIN.

this is OBVIOUSLY the office problem.

First, beginning of the semester, they send my registration 2 week after the study semester starts.

It's okay.

I can manage with the first 2 weeks of studies later on.

AND NOW

they pre-barred me. AGAIN.

same time every semester.

owh well.

Need to write a unbarred letter and a interview with Mr Felix, the faculty head of department.

On Wednesday, 2,40pm.

owh well

that's it for today.

Bo Beep Bo Beep. Out.

Fuh.

I tell you what.

Today.

I was the only representative from T18 (and this is my tutorial class number)

to attend English Tutorial Class.

luckily, there's Kah Mun and her girls from T19 join the class.

If not that will be like attending 1 to 1 PHD lesson.

anyway.

the English lesson is kinda stress free.

has some quiz and informal chat with the tutor.

Well. Of course that's not the end of my day. duh.

Jeremy will NEVER have dull day(for now. boredom will kill me. real hard)

Help Ms Joey Chew with design for her blogger interface.

hopefully that she will be satisfied with it.

anyway, here is her blogspot add :

http://tehjoey03.blogspot.com/

of course there's similarity between hers and mine.

hope that she will love it haha!

but if she is not satisfied.

that can't be blamed.

tell me what can you do in less than 1 hour time about blogging interface where:

merging both copyright material and non in to a blog.

(It is not as easy as you think. for a computer idiot like me)

editing copyrighted material in to something unique.

(yeap. i even edit the body background contains her name in twilight font. cool eh?)

and well the others is for you guys to explore.

good night

Bo Beep Bo Beep out.

The Subway Of Life

If you ask me,

what can "The Human Life" be put in a moment.

I would say that Human Life is like getting on a subway or a train during a busy morning.

Before you are born, you charged in to the train just like million of others of peoples on the train platform. Only those who are lucky is able to enter the train. Of course, there's people who are stepping out from the train as well. As we know that trains are getting bigger these days but yet it still can't get hold of these much peoples. The world is over populating.

Inside the train there is loads of unknown peoples to you. Some will approach you and some won't.

you may find someone giving up his or her seats for the old, young, handicapped and pregnant. some however don't. Just as you can find kind hearted peoples everyday.

It is up to you to get to know them anyway.

For those people you meet on train, some have good intention on the other hand, some don't. Others may just stay Switzerland, aka remain neutral.

Maybe you're lucky that you will find someone pleasing to you on the train. For most of the case, yes you will. And maybe you will leave him or her anyway for another better companion.

when you reached your destination, you step out from the train, leaving those you peoples you know behind. And that is the end of your train riding journey. Of course, shit happens as maybe someone from behind pushed you out from the train accidentally. But that too, your train riding journey ends there. Unless you get to push back in. That is your will to come back.

Some might have extraordinary fun and adventurous train riding experience, some for those who just prefer to be alone, of course, just another dull train ride.

So how is your train riding experience till today?