Jeremy's Defination Of "终身的另一半"

终身的另一半：

1）一个会让你/妳开心，伤心，生气，以及让你/妳心情在短时间内180度大变的人。

2）一个时常让你/妳破口大骂的臭家伙，不过也是心里最常挂念的那个“臭家伙”。

3）一个无论他/她做过多少让你伤心，当你/妳叫他/她滚出你/妳面前，不过当他/她跪下斟茶认错时，让你/妳心软的人。

4）一个时常在冷冰冰的夜里和你/妳抢棉被/枕头或半夜时常一脚踢你/妳下床/吻墙壁的坏东西。

5）一个时常在别人/朋友/家人面前泼你/妳冷水的混蛋，但是在别人后面被你/妳常常欺负的人。

6）同性也可

消愁

借酒消愁愁更愁，

抬头忘眼杯中酒，

酒醒了时又重醉，

眼前佳人仍别离。

冬恋

冬天夜里难入眠，

与君分隔东西边，

烦了嘴里摊着烟，

得知君儿刚上线，

卯时线上聊了天，

希望来日得见面，

希望未来有份缘。。

Someone Left Me...

no, it's not someone just special.
He's my buddy
my coursemate,
my friend.
he just left us like that,
leaving nothing but our depress.

i can't believe that it's his departure that lead me to write on this blog again.
FUCK IT MAN!
WHY
how could you....

miss you man,
those unspeakable words,
things that unable for me to do,
things that i've did.

I'm sorry.
I'm sad.
I'm depressed.
I miss you....

1st of November.
every year.
this is the day that i will remind me of you.

rest in peace,
my friend...
farewell...

Conscience

Conscience

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Definition from the Web
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–noun
1. the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one's conduct or motives, impelling one toward right action: to follow the dictates of conscience.
2. the complex of ethical and moral principles that controls or inhibits the actions or thoughts of an individual.
3. an inhibiting sense of what is prudent: I'd eat another piece of pie but my conscience would bother me.
4. conscientiousness.
5. Obsolete. consciousness; self-knowledge.
6. Obsolete. strict and reverential observance.
—Idioms
7. have something on one's conscience, to feel guilty about something, as an act that one considers wrong: She behaves as if she had something on her conscience.
8. in all conscience,
a. in all reason and fairness.
b. certainly; assuredly.
Also, in conscience.
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i felt that i lost 'em...
after having a chat with Ah Boy and Carlyn
yeah,
a chat about my ex-gfs during my year of study in Kampar.
felt really really bad about dumping them.
thinking back how stupid and heartless of me in the first place.
even thou that
no matter how sorry i felt now.
it just wouldn't change isn't it?

well i did msn a recent ex-gf of mine a few moments ago.
but till now there is no reply,
well i guess she couldn't accept it until now.
couldn't blame anyone but myself.

all of them have their bfs now.
they seems happy.
I should feel happy for them,
shouldn't I?

seeing a smile on their face.
brightens me a little.
at least knowing them that
they found their true love of their live.

conscience.
a journey for me start finding them?

Camwhoring :3

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sorry guys for the disappearance AGAIN

yeah been a god darn busy week
it's been like...entering the 4th week or so of non-stoping exam madness
insane isn't it?

it's not that really that busy either
haha
just don't know what to write and don't really have something to update about.

so yeah.
Cam-Whoring


Say Hello To Ms Karen Kan. I know she's going to kill me if she sees this haha.


Behold.....Utar Toilet Cam Whoring


Yeah It's The Toilet Again =/


Last Scene!!!!!


Ninja MODE!!


Turtle Neck - SeeD
Jacket - Sub

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It's Been A While Right?

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It's been a while since i last updated,
everything's been cool
just tired with constant exams and stuffs
intended to drop 1 repeat subject but then all
works done have been wasted
due to the amount paid for the subject cannot be refunded
geez
just wasting my time writing the god darn letter.
so well
heading back to class AGAIN
and i think i just miss the mid term for that particular subject
let's see of the lecturer is able to let me resit for the subject's mid term 1
owh right
within this period of time.
FINALLY
found someone fond of roses.
but she's fond of purple roses.
while me on the other hand prefer red or black
according to her
purple roses possessed evil powers @@
scary isn't it?
haha
"Jen"
feel free to visit her blog at the link place.
well in case you're just too lazy to find it
i'll submit a link here.
ღ Deep WIthin Jen - Jen Ny ღ
Jen hope you don't mind I help promote your blog ya? ^^

till then fellas.
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On and On - Utada Hikaru
album - This Is The One (2009)

(On & On) [x4]

I just want to dance the night, the night, away
Go ahead and make my day, Mr. DJ
(Make the night go on and on, make the night go on and on)

[Chorus:]
Honeys, if you're gay, burn it up, like a gay parade
Honeys, if you're straight, bump it up, take it all away
Intoxicated, emancipated, unapologetic's what I am today
Light me up

[Refrain:]
Make the night go on and on and on
You know we go on and on and on
Make the night go on and on and on
I'm living up my life until the day I die
Don't need a lullaby

Ee oh ee oh (on & on & on) [x4]

Music got me sweating hard
I feel my heart bumping like an 808
Uh huh, okay

Make the night go on and on
If you want to mess with us
Make the night go on and on
You can play the game with us

[Chorus]
Honeys, if you're gay, burn it up, like a gay parade
Honeys, if you're straight, bump it up, take it all away
Intoxicated, emancipated, unapologetic's what I am today
Light me up

[Refrain]
Make the night go on and on and on
You know we go on and on and on
Make the night go on and on and on
I'm living up my life until the day I die
Don't need a lullaby

Intoxicated, emancipated, unapologetic
On & on, on & on & on
Intoxicated, emancipated, unapologetic is what I am today
Light me up
Make the night go on and on and on
You know we go on and on and on
Make the night go on and on and on...

Utada's New Album :D

Seriously i'm slow about this one...
it's out but i got lagged behind
I'm so sorry Utada-Chan.

anyway.
plan to get her album this weekend and will listen to it whole day and night :)

Fellas
I present you

Utada Hikaru
This Is The One (2009)
Released 12th May 2009

Day 24 : Twilight Original Motion Picture Soundtrack

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Seriously Speaking,
This OST rocks!

i mean,
most of the songs are kinda cool in a way
but still i prefer Bella's Lullaby
:)
sweet song.
you guys should really check it out.

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Day 23 : Twilight Saga : New Moon

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New Moon Youtube Trailer in HD

damn,
can't wait till 20.11.2009
for New Moon
seems cool
and Jacob can transform as well???
thing are getting a lil more interesting isn't it?

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Day 22 : Sickness Madness

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guess what?
entering the 5th day of sickness
visited the doctor 2nd time this week
he gave me another set of stronger medicines to replace the one he gave me 2 days back
well
it's a bit dizzy after taking the medicines
but after i wake from the nap
the sick sure DID reduced
but it's back again few hours later
cough's been bad
headache's been worst
and due to the work out yesterday
my chest and arm muscle's aching
darn it.
another day with porridge
well
the food's at Golden Sand's good
but just that the food and beverages just too slow to be served.
imaging 3 porridge and takes 2 hours for us to finish our meals.
BH's porridge's came the last
HAHA.
finally a joke for the day.
darn.
I hate being sick

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Day 21 : Still Sick

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this is total madness!!
my medicines is running low
but my sickness still here
i guess the hot weather sure is affecting my body a lot.
i drank a lot of water
i ate my medicines on time and after meals.
i have sufficient rest
i even took a nap
and i went to the gym this morning after my math 2's class
the gym seems cool
good equipments
but somehow limited.
well the morning session is kinda pack
until 12 pm.
i guess most of the students having 12 pm classes.
i feel energetic during the gym time
NO SICKNESS!!!
LOADS OF SWEATS !!!
but after the workout
after taking a nap
the darn sick came back again.
may work out a new timetable of my life to have a constant gym time.
well
priority is for my heath
and secondly,
of course to check out some chicks in the gym or take a peek
from window in front of the threat mill.
owh right,
threat mills' limited to 20 min per session
unless there's like no one booking for it
you can have as many 20 min session as you like
but don't over do it ;)
i guess you guys can expect to see me in the gym
from next tuesday onwards,
10.45~12.45pm session.
if you guys' at Kampar
it's getting late and i shall write till here
i'll take a peek shot of the gym next session
might be on thursday
and per entry will be Rm 2.
if there's less people,
trust me
it's worth it :)

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Day 20 : Living With Retard

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I'm seriously sick with all this housemate shits going on
before this,
me and my ex housemates,
1 years back
we don't have problems using the internet
due to we understand each other and will no download any shits when other's are awake
but then after changing housemates
but i'm staying back due to mom's objections
i starting to have this nightmare
a nightmare of couldn't connect to the internet
firsty,
there's this ULTIMATE BITORRENT user
okay
i understand you need to use torrent
i'm not objecting WHEN you download when we're not using the internet
but hell
now,
what happen?
the whole modem's DNS setting has run haywire
it's okay,
maybe things gets better after the modem gets some rest
BUT WTH IS GOING UNDER YOUR TINY ITSY BITSY MIND!?!?!?!?
you fucking reset the modem's setting without even thinking????
it's Danish House's setting and it's like you know it?
I DON'T KNOW IT EITHER YOU FREAK!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE USE YOUR STUPID PEA BRAIN FOR JUST SOME TIME
THINK BEFORE YOU have done something idiotic FOR GODNESS SAKE!
great now everyone have to suffer no internet TILL Danish House gets the modem fixed.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR STUPID ACT
i hope god can punish you
sending you to hell and burn till you rot is too late for that,
i hope the Mighty one will make you total retard but not 50% like now
so that you'll be send away to somewhere else,
not in here,
not only killing yourself but killing everyone around you.
I doubt you change house by your own willingness
i think your ex housemates hates you more than we do.
I hate you,
you brainless PLAGUE carrier.
go fuck yourself.

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Day 19 : Tell Tale Signs

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How can you tell that your girlfriends is not interested in you anymore*

1) She doesn't get angry anymore
this is one of the signs that she's not interested in you anymore,
does she stops asking you to stop smoking?
does she stop complaining you being late for picking up or for an appointment?
does she EVEN stops gets angry for minor reason?
because she don't even care about you anymore
she rather spend time wondering and gets angry for another guy whom she cared for
she's just too lazy to spend her precious time on you anymore.

2)She placed the focus on you
Whenever you two have a talk and normally you would start asking her how's her day
she normally replied,
"aw, today's just okay, so how about yours?"
this is not caring,
this is avoiding what have she done when you're busy doing your flirtings.
it seems that her chatting batteries have worn out and place the topic on,
You, you and YOU!
there's only 1 reason for it,
she doesn't wants you to know what she's up to.

3)She's not needy anymore
She normally ask favors from you,
now and then, here and there
you get frustrated but at least she's still beside you.
but when time comes to when she get her cloths herself from the laundry,
she gets her cup of water by herself,
she even stop asking you to give her a lift for meals.
While it's also possible she needs some space and time for herself..
OR
it could also mean that she's no longer to be needy....for YOU
because there's someone better to do these stuffs for her than you.

4)She's wearing matching underwears
Ever wonder why does she changes her wearing styles,
suddenly you felt her changed her looks after weeks and weeks maybe months of complaints of her dressing's just too dull for you?
Maybe she's just trying to surprise you for some particular reason
or maybe she's testing your taste so that she can do the modellings to the other guy.

5)She starts to care for what's entering her tummy
Unless that she's starts to gets worried about how your friends will judge on your girl.
but isn't it strange that she have the urge to change her eating
and her looks better than ever out of a sudden?

6)She stops asking in-motion from you
when's the last time she ever asked sex from you?
do you feel that normally she'll be full interest when you tingle her sensitive parts
she will do as what you wanted her to do.
but suddenly,
she'll stop doing what you like and you'll have to obey her orders interests all the while.
she starts pushing you away when you tries to be intimate.
so, who's been sharing your past orders with her now?

7)She starts talking about this same guy she meet in school.
well it's normal for a girl to talk about many cute guys she meet in school.
but not ONE guy maybe not cute or something
but for no reason,
she keeps talking about that guy.
what she and the other guy doing that other day.
but out of a sudden,
she stops talking about it.
Maybe it's just that she lost interests or
she's been meeting him and don't want you to notice that.

8)She gives you too many details what she did just now
she starts giving you details of where she have been.
DETAILED.
without you asking or maybe you did ask.
it maybe something normal.
well, women can talk alot but this time
it's too different from what she's been.
it maybe that she's trying to prove herself being innocent
even though you haven't and didn't even suspect it.
But if your girlfriend is trying to cover for herself without you even giving her a reason, she probably has one.

9)1 + 1 + doesn't adds up to 2?
did you found out later on that she's being lying?
Finally, things just don't make sense or add up when thinking back.
Perhaps your girlfriend said she was going somewhere,
but later you find out she wasn't even there...
And it just doesn't click probably.



A Prevention Is Better Than A Cure
-Tysus Kok (yeah my brother told me this provb)

but it don't seems to be there's a prevention for a lost interest girl friend.


*just for references.
results of experimental may be vary.

Day 18 : 好一个以毒攻毒...

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ok.
i'm sick
cough and sore throat
so well
and JL come up with this STUPID IDEA
"eh, go to water fall leh so hot"
i replied
"i cough la!"
he dare to say this
"以毒攻毒。。。"
ok lo
suan lo
go mah go
since so hot
so we called Ah Boy to go la
since Me, JL, SL(it's actually not ST) and Ah Boy
Ah Boy's driving cuz SL scare to drive her Vios up to the Waterfall.

well it's fun.

but that 以毒攻毒 thingy
seems made my cough worst.
Damn.

so to readers,
NO NOT GO WATERFALL
especially when someone come up with this 以毒攻毒 conversation
when you are sick.





sorry lo
my body not fit enough to be in the photo lo
pai seh la.

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Day 18 : WHAT THE HELL???

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okay
so yeah things kinda HAPPEN again
so first we intend to go down to Ipoh to grab some coffees
well it's StarBucks
it's my stupid idea anyway.
I'M JUST JOKING ABOUT STARBUCKS OKAY!?!?!?!?!

so yeah,
we head down Ipoh slightly after dinner at the new open place in Kampar
i think the place's called 金沙

owh about that place
it's not really enjoying thou
you have to pay once the food AND drinks is served
as in
the drinks comes first
you pay the first time
then the foods
you pay the second time
come on!
you think you opening coffee shop meh!?!?!?!

and basically
they even grand opening it before they have sufficient workers =.=
so actually there's 2 floors but now...
yeah you can imagine how many peoples gathering there on the ground floor

okay scrap that
then we headed down to Starbucks first
that time is around 12 when we reach there
we enter Parade's outdoor car park then we notice the chairs are already stacked up
well
i used to think all Starbucks have the same opening and closing time
PLUS!!!!
It's a public holiday tomorrow!!!!
so JL says...
"NO I DUN CARE I WANT COFFEE"
so we head down to Jusco Kinta City
...
yeah the same shit happens
but one thing has changed
Jusco Kinta City now need to pay entrance fees -.-|||



so...we went to McD near Jusco.
but the outdoor's full so...
we head down to Medan Gopeng AGAIN for the 2nd time in the same week.

The Conetto McFlurry
It's Crunchy + Sweet and FATTY!

but i still love it


and i just happen to like the moon that day so i just take a shot at it.
it's so....nice.

so well the next day
we ate our lunch at....4pm?
and this is what happens in Kampar when you ate at this hour

and no,
this is what it's like when it comes.

believe your eyes.




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Day 17 : 習慣失戀- 容祖兒

習慣失戀

容祖兒

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不拖手　或者都可堪稱熱戀
一拖手　比咳嗽更短
太快了　我未快樂過已失戀

想不起　被愛是如何溫暖
想不通　未夠資格使你心軟
但也知道心會這麼酸

理所當然我的錯　令你忽然離開
半路留下我　為何這麼快看清楚
落得這結果

知我是個　無法討好的人
　相戀一刻　只是我的僥倖
然而回頭　誠實去自問
　我可討厭到　如此乞你憎

　知我連眼淚　也絕不感人
　只知怎麼考驗　你的操行
從前為何　纏在你附近

你不寂寞　便嫌我笨
難道我未夠好　未懂得熱吻
足夠令你憐憫　勾不起你的興奮

不擔心　自尊心這麼受損
只擔心　我將我看穿
我怕我　以後太習慣了失戀

理所當然我的錯　令你忽然離開
也是我錯麼　為何這麼快看清楚
落得這結果

知我是個　無法討好的人
　相戀一刻　只是我的僥倖
然而回頭　誠實去自問
　我可討厭到　如此乞你憎

　知我連眼淚　也絕不感人
　只知怎麼考驗　你的操行
從前為何　纏在你附近

更加速發覺　原本都不相襯
我未夠吸引　你未夠狠

知我是個　無法討好的人
　相戀一刻　只是我的僥倖
然而回頭　誠實去自問
　我可討厭到　如此乞你憎

　知我連眼淚　也絕不感人
　只知怎麼考驗　你的操行
從前為何　纏在你附近

到底這個故事　有沒有發生
何必受罪　心即使碎一碎
我仍能　繼續追
願那一刻共聚　懂得怎去相愛
愛人難　我肯學　定能愛下去

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Day 16 : tough starting week!!!

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I'm so sorry again for not showing up updates for the past few days
it's been a freaking BUSY WEEK!!!!
as i stated
i'm repeating semester 2
but now things have some MINOR changes
one of the subject have shifted to a semester one subject
so i'm currently running both side of the semester

WAIT!!!!!
that's not the last of it!
another stuffs i want to complain will be:
UTAR managing team sure have some bad plannings
1/6 - first day of class
i've went to school to retrieve my new timetable
so i went to the faculty office to get the time table.
but when i reach. what i notice is,
they STILL dividing the management into 2 parts
1)the office
2)registry and other information of courses

so i decided to look around to find clues of where to get the timetable
note: semester 2 is a so-called flexi time table which is students picks the time for their own lectures and tutorial time.
but, of course
due to my condition
and most of the slots are full
and they never release the time table so i have to seek for my own
finally i notice the office window having this notice:
"Time table inquiry"
so i waited there nicely
well 10 mins have passed
no one's at the counter
so i thought that maybe they'll come later
finally
2 hours has passed
i even saw those who waited for the information counter come and go but i'm still static on my position
i'm remarkably speechless
fine so i decided to go home

2/6
the second day is just much the same of day 1
just that
i relined up for like 3 whole time.
i went to the information counter to ask about the time table
i've been waiting there since 7+
but the office's not open till 9
what i saw is there's some amount of people already waiting there
so i guess
the management really sucks at these stuffs LOL.
so finally 2 hours has passed
the office open
and i have to wait another 30 mins to reach my turn.
when it's my turn, i asked where can i get semester 2's timetable
the counter guy replied
at the main department office
okay! fine

so i went to REline up at the main office
guess what
there's like 3 lines of students but only 1 office guy to handle all the job
great another 1 hour taken. finally it's my turn
i asked him about what i wanted
he asked me to RELINE up INSIDE the office
i take a peek inside the office
OMFG!
it's like another pile of students
cause KTAR diploma graduates going to continue degree in UTAR
so it seems that they head here as well.
so i line up
but you know what
i don't know why my position isn't moving after 30 mins have pass
but then
i notice
these smart asses
actually send 1 representative to represent them for the que and when it's thier turn,
the rep called them to come
it's not 1 or 2
is like 7 people in front of my line
80% of them are reps.
and it's not representing 1 or 2 people
it's like....5?
so basically it takes 1 hour + AGAIN to reach my turn.
but before that
a officer saw this and asked the receptionist what happen.
what makes so many people in a que
just because alot of KTAR students continueing that's why makes the que so freaking long.
so the officer called ALL KTAR students to enter the meeting room for breifing so that UTAR students can get the piority
and to explain what to do as well
cuz alot of KTAR students came there empty handed
and keep delaying what to do and this and that
i'm not saying KTAR students what
but it's just the management should've forseen such matters.
i mean, if the officer came by 1 day earlier
so many things can be solved
so concludes
UTAR management is suckish!
owh right
when it's my turn
it took less than 5 mins to complete
i've done what i have to do
to register what i have to repeat
and so on
i'm there basically just to take my damn time table which takes around like...
whole day in UTAR.

so
the time slots for my subjects it's like...
monday to saturday classes
1 lecture/tutorial from monday to thursday
and 2 for friday and saturday
and the only time where the lessons are close to each others is saturday
but guess what?
it;s 12pm ~ 4pm class.
and i doubt that the time can be changed anymore
cuz...
UTAR is freaking pack now.
sooner or later i'll post a screen shot of bicycles in UTAR compound.
i hope that doesn't freak you guys out LOL.

and owh ya.
i failed my business law AGAIN.
lol
i' m not surprised.
but then
there's no such subject on the current semester
so....
i have to wait for it.
maybe i'm taking 1 subject for 1 semester that time.

so yeah
i think i can conclude the topic for the moment. haha

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Day 15 : Am I A Relationship Counsellor?

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i haven't been sleeping since yesterday
having some serious things having in my mind
what happen to 2 of my friends
one is my best housemate, JL ever
another one, is someone that i'm closed with.
(i will not talk about the second one, for the moment)

i'll start off with the housemate's story first:
today(due to i haven't sleep but local time states that it's around 10.30pm)
i saw him.
dripping his tears silently
i saw that,
i knew what happen.
but i still kept quiet.
he's the kind of people.
strong personality, enduring, nothing can change his decision,
he can't lose, and he always strife for the best
but yet he cried
this is not the first time he cried.
then skipping the emo part where he ran to westlake alone.
smoking his cigarettes alone.
he needs time to chill off,
then suddenly he said he want to head down to Medan Gopeng to have a McD
he wanted me, BH and ST to follow
so well,
i broke my diet habit for him.

on the way to Medan Gopeng,
he seems cool but somehow i can feel that he's emoing
after reaching to McD
we just start the normal chatting
he suddenly broke up asking,
"Am I a person who is 花心?"
he told us his story,
after understanding the part of the situation
we suggest to him to give it up.
imagine(this is HIS story thou, what is the OTHER side's story, sorry to say, IDK),
He did all he can to protect A,
telling A's housemates that A's not the kind of people that they think A is.
did everything to bring back A's reputation back
but what A says is,
JL has poisoned A's housemates.
and that's not all,
A still says that,
JL is trying to amuse A so that JL can get together with B
(B's the girl the JL likes alot, i know it)
but then,
A,B and C belongs to a group where
JL used to be together with them.
now, A,B and C did stuffs separate from JL.
JL has quite unremarkable female attraction.
(damn, i'm jealous, AGAIN)

ok back to the questioning part
(Am I a person who is 花心?)
i answered him,
the fact is,
all guys will attract to pretty girls or rather someone who is better
normally
even thou that they are in a relationship
花心是男人的本色
but the problem is
花心 and 花花公子(playboy) is different
so he's definitely innocent

then he argues that he have to protect A,
even if A had back stabbed him in front of B and C
he still will protect A

now another question poped up,
he asked,
Is his human attraction is bad,
why will people back stabbed him?
i asked him again,
is this the first time he being back stabbed by his close buddies,
he nodded silently.
i mean,
come on
i been experiencing this shit since secondary school
my case is the worst,
i have a gf before then,
one of my buddy likes her
and he back stabbed me so that she can go with him.

i tell him my situation to him,
and ask him,
if one day
a buddy of yours did to you the same thing that i experience,
will you still treat him as buddy
he said yes.

i told him
this type of buddy and gf
throw away also never mind
firstly, a good buddy will not back stab you
secondly, a gf have to trust her boyfriend and vice versa.
if the simple things mention about.
what for keeping them?

then he told us,
he don't know what to do,
i can see that he's already broken apart
he told me that if he can't stand it anymore,
he will fly to taiwan and study there.
i asked him back,
it's only second year now.
and you've just spend 20 years living
who knows in taiwan,
same thing will happen just like now?
but then
we aren't there for you when that time comes.

then he asked is he already broken apart?
we said yes,
he asked how can we know that,
ST said something like.
"you rather make yourself to believe that you are a bad person just for A.
You will fly to taiwan to avoid it.
You want others to lie to you that you are not someone that you are not
and you are not the JL that i used to know"

after listening to what ST said,
JL cried.
for the 2nd time,
he cried among his friends.
because everything in his mind had been said by ST

what happen in the middle of the conversation i don't remember
but he said
he is envious that I am very cool (潇洒)
i know i am now,
but JL just haven't seen what happen to me when things got worst when i'm young

he's just lucky to have friend to give him a helping hand when he's in a deep hole of depressed.
what i experience.
is worst
thinking back,
i even wrote a will (seriously LOL when i'm young)

柴九is right,
人生有多少个十年？
最重要是活的精彩.

well,
i can see that after we kept on slapping him facts to wake up from depress
he seems finally the old JL i knew.
the reason i'm helping him is that
i want him to be what he is.
helping him won't let me earn money.
just merely
want him to be what he used to be.
is that simple,
sometimes,
life isn't what you think that complicated.

when it's too tiring carry a burden,
why not letting it go?

sometimes,
being selfish is not a crime
it is how you can appreciate yourself over something not worthy.

and i hope my 84 minutes of life is not wasted.
and 5 whole hours of counseling.

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Day 14 : The View In Kampar

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If you guys wondering what does Kampar looks like?
i got few photo of it
it's just the beautiful side i guess xD

so just enjoy



Facing Inside Westlakes Homes + Sun Set Sky Senery
( The Official Hostel, In fact they are the agency that recommended by fellow Utar staffs)





The Serene across the Westlake and the evening passion




The Houses View Outside From My Room.
Damn, it's hot. but the ice cream truck seems.....interesting...





the innocent pigeon being caught in the act of running around...alone




This Picture is kinda blur due to my handphone don't have the specs of flash light and secondly
it's python you're looking at...
if flash light suddenly emerged...
i don't think i still have this picture to show...
perhaps...the handphone got eaten by the python.
i'm too big for the pyhton anyway. xD

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Day 13 : New Semester~

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LaLaLa
1st June!
the starting of a new semester!
gratz myself for repeating semester 2

owh well
it's somehow a good news
which i can meet more people
and PERHAPS get a better results than my previous ()^^($&#&^%@T#*)^&** results

the bad news is
i'm staying another 6 months back
owh crap

i do know some of the new semester 2 students thou
cuz i repeated my business law subject
and yeah met some of them
they're so indeed caring
maybe they pity me
cuz i'm late for the lecture for 4 weeks and 6th week it's time for assignment submition LOL

so hopefully
i can make a better university life onwards
you know
sometimes uni life bores
but
it's cool to hang out with people with different generation
get to know what are they thinking.

till then

Semester 2
Here I am to once again
take the challenges!

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Day 12 : Sad News

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ok here's the news
the Ex-girlfriend that i broke up few months back
we still find each other for a couple of month after we broke up however

she found a guy that she thinks fit better than i am
i should be happy about it
for her

but i'm have a mini sad feeling in my heart
others told me that she's not a good girl
well i admit that she's imperfect but
who is perfect anyway?

so she start meeting this guy when she's still at my place
first she complain that
the guy is very bothering
and now
she's together with him
isn't it hard to understand girl's feeling?

it's simple but maybe we thinking it's very complicated

the reason she says why she wants to be with him rather to be with me is:
he will spend his time with her, as in watch drama and so on and what i do is playing computer games, i somehow admit , yes i do play games but i still do accompany her, duh?
my mom doesn't like her attitude, yeah i know my mom don't like her attitude but at least when i ask her to act, if she willing to act polite, my mom will not hate her.

but however
she told me that he have 7 cars at his house, this is bugging me.
i usually walk with her for meals and now that guy fetchs her for stuffs
so well that makes me thinks that she's with him due to cars
and the gaming part.
i still thinks that she and him together due to revenge against me for dumping her in the first place.

well what makes me regret is
if i decline meeting her in the first place after break up.
(she ask if she can use the internet, due to her house's internet is down)
maybe i won't be falling fer her for the second time

if time will turn itself back
IF i agreed to be with her in the first place
i will spend my time with her
but...
i'm confused now...thou.

sometimes, i asked myself.
Is It Sinful Just To Be Selfish?

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Day 11: Doggy Doggy!!!!!!

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okay
since even my brother influenced me of raring a doggy
i feel like getting a cute doggy and put in my hostel
but then there seems a problem....
1)My hostel management will find out and kick that poor puppy out
2)what if the doggy SHITS on my stuffs i don't know how to train puppies since i don't OFFICIALLY have a dog before.
THIS is the puppy i have
they don't eat, don't bark, don't pee and DON'T SHIT!


cuddle puppies.
too bad can't bring them to Kampar.

and!!!!!
this is the puppies at Ah Boy's House also very very cute.




and of course,
my subang buddy's cute dog
idk what is this breed but hell it
it's cute. ;)



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Day 10 : Japanese Food At Subang

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firstly i label as day 10 due to i have this event in another day haha :0

well i forgotten what's the name of this Japanese Restaurant
but i know it's at SS 15 Subang Jaya
opposite the SJMC Hospital
between Ryu Mein Tei and another Japanese Restaurant
basically it's like 3 ~ 4 Japanese Restaurant in a GOD DAMN row.
man, are they challenging each and another?
or that's a feng sui place for Japanese Food
or maybe they believe that people that was hospitalized in SJMC will go to their places for food because, you know, they said Japanese Food's good for health
the fish, the seaweed and SUSHI!!!! SASHIMI!!!! SAKE!!!!!!
god i want to put a tatami seat at my home in the future
this will makes a home more tidy and yeah,
polite.

i got not much pictures due to my phone memory space going to explode so yeah
this is my Unagi Bento Set

lovely isn't it?but well yeah, it WASN'T like that when it come of course.
i happen to eat some of it and realized that i could do promote this is blog xD



and this is the dragon prawn sushi(forgotten it's name)
seems delicious, YUM YUM :D

but when it comes to my bill...
owh gosh..
RM 400 ++ excluding tax. but they are free of tax too.
personally i don't know why
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Day 9 : Nostalgia of Genting's Trip

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So well
it's titled as NOSTALGIA due to I updated late.
well anyway

The why up to Genting from the Awana Cable Car
It's been some time since last time i took a Cable Car up there
so basically it's fun :)




the back view of looking down the hills




this is the front view, Looking UP to the hills



The First World Hotel, I didn't stayed up in genting due to it's SUPPOSED to be a one day trip haha xD



look at the fog covering First World....It's so beautiful isn't it.

the weather here in Genting always reminds me WHAT THE FUCK HAPPEN TO THE FUCKING WEATHER in kl.



well, this is basically me posing *cute* out door in the theme park xD



another image of fog covering up Genting
well basically i enjoy this kind of weather
kinda romantic isn't it?

let me ask you a question:
well, what's cooler than an event of a lost
and in you happen to be at Genting?
Ta~Da~~~

having a chill Iced Cold Vanilla Fraps + Outdoor + Dunhill Menthol
well the only way of getting more chilled is replacing Dunhill with SKLs

looking at this
dark clouds in genting

well yeah, it did rained later on that day. theme park closed down for the mean time.


did you see this SWARM of Japanese Carps in Genting before?
i remembered when i was little, the carps ain't such in this amount.
it kinda freak me out.
just like those SWARMS in Pudu Bus Station. Creeps me out alot.

well this sign says:
Shallow Water!
Dangerous!
Don't Dive!

so well means i can swim right? xD
this sign can be found at the....aiks forgotten which part
but i know i took this at outdoor theme park.



ah...the lover's bridge in indoor First World
it's a bridge linking Starbucks First World across the fake Vienna River
Since I am at a earlier Teenager,
I was thinking of bringing some one that i love to this bridge,
but well
seems like that dream's still unfilled xD
nevermind, for the moment, there's more chances
after studies of course.

owh then
that reaches the end of the day :0
here's such beautiful view that you can't get anywhere else.
gotta treasure this in to a real good memory
hope next time when i come to genting again
this beautiful scenery's still here

Day 8 : Back!!!!!

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Sorry For The MIA for nearly 1 week
went back to KL and forgotten to bring my PC along
so basically can't online much for this blog

well
for the holidays
I went to Genting and as well as trying some Japanese Cuisine in Subang Jaya
I'll post those experience here soon when I have to time

take care and expect something more soon :)

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Day 7 : 林峰 - 愛不疚 The Song Of My Heart

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林峰 - 愛不疚

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 愛猜到沒有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你開心就夠

這種感覺太親厚 講一千句也不夠
假使講了你聽到後 或會走
這種戀愛太罕有 不須真正擁有
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手

放手 放開所有 彼此更自由
放手 其實我絕非愛得不夠
放手 豁出所有 還有這個好友
已經 已經足夠

遙遠是宇宙 靜靜在背後 去看守就夠

這種感覺太親厚 講一千句也不夠
即使一剎有過衝動 挽你手
這種戀愛太罕有 不須真正擁有
成全 多捨不得仍然 是放手

放手 放開所有 彼此更自由
放手 其實我絕非愛得不夠
放手 豁出所有 還有這個好友
已經 已經足夠

放手 我的牽掛 找不到盡頭
放手 期望你幸福甚麼都有
也許 愛很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可擁有

My tears are dripping when I'm listening to this song now...
Maybe letting go...
Is to show her how you want her to be happy..

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What Will You Feel?

When Someone You Hate But He/She Loves You Does :

1)called you even he knows that you closed your handphone but die trying
2)envy other people just because you are with the other person
3)lied to you because He/She hopes to attract your attention, He/She still knows about the consequences.
4)hurt you because He/She knows if he don't hurt you a little now, maybe it's worst in the future.
5)He/She is broke but still lied to you so that you can enjoy sometime else.
6)Argues with parents just because He/She just wanted to be with you ( well i know romeo and juliet does that)
7)He/She waited whole day just to get a call or text maybe just a miss call will do from you
8)He/She can't eat without you to fight over foods with Him/her
9)He/She cares for you even if you said you hates Him/Her
10)He/She will do whatever it takes just to see you for 1 more time.
11)He/She helps you to do everything you wanted him/her to do.
12)He/She argues with you because arguing with you, He/She feels that this is the best way to show that i still care for what you did
13)He/She finds you and chat and still willing to be your friend after you both breaks up
14)You said you wanted to drink Coke, He/She refills or went all the way out with a BIKE just because they wanted you to be happy even if they can't afford a car.
15)He/She still writes empty non reply messages from you and yet still texting you.

so...
please be aware of these people
they are the true ones that they wanted you to spend the rest of your life
with his/her ones.

appreciation
that's a good deed

being loved is easy, but loving someone is hard.

it takes more than just words to prove that "I Love You".

From Me To Her, and of course, You, The Bloggers.

Day 6 : Boriiiiiiing

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Day 1 after finals
waiting for someone to come but well yeah
still waiting.
Just explanation needed.

other readers' getting urged to know why pps is so cool
ok back to topic
I manage to watch the newest TVB drama haha

巾帼枭雄

anyway,
it's released till chapter 10th on May 09 on pps.
will keep on noticing for updates on chapters
how many more chapters?
how long can I wait???
but the story line's AWESOME!!!

have fun :)

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Day 5 : Holiday FTW?????

alright
here's the season
for all of us to enjoy
some to head back to hometown for some relaxing session
some might go for some shopping spree and so on
but however,
my case
i guess i'll be heading back to my home and sit ducks
waiting for the results to release
and hope no fucking jokes of my results that will results in either 2nd probation or
stay back in semester 2 to clear the fucking subjects
*cross fingers*

have fun peoples

ღ Back To The Start - Lily Allen ღ

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Back To The Start

When we were growing up you always looked like you were having such fun
You always were and you always will be the taller and the prettier one
People seem to love you
They gravitate towards you
That's why I started to hate you so much
And I just completely ignored you

I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long
It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong
I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years
All the pain I've caused you
The constant flow of all the tears
Believe me when I say that I cannot apologise enough
When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love
And if it's not too late
Could you please find it deep within your heart
To try and go back go back to the start
Go back to the start

I've been so evil with my constant invasions
But you made it so easy for me
You always rise to the occasion
I'll always pull you up on every stupid thing that you say
But I found it so entertaining
Messing around with your head

I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long
It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong
I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years
All the pain I've caused you
The constant flow of all the tears
Believe me when I say that I cannot apologise enough
When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love
And if it's not too late
Could you please find it deep within your heart
To try and go back go back to the start
Go back to the start
Go back to the start
Go back to the start

This is not just a song
I intend to put these words into action
I hope that it sums up the way that I feel to your satisfaction

I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long
It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong
I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years
All the pain I've caused you
The constant flow of all the tears
Believe me when I say that I cannot apologise enough
When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love
And if it's not too late
Could you please find it deep within your heart
To try and go back go back to the start
Go back to the start

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ღ Day 2 : Finished From Exam ღ

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okay that's all for Business Management
i got around....22 hours left for my next test which is
the accounting
and well yeah,
supposingly I'll be only revise on tips given and so on.
God Bless Us
Amen.
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ღ Are You Happy Now - Michelle Branch ღ

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Are You Happy Now - Michelle Branch

Now...don't just walk away
Pretending everything's okay
And you don't care about me

And I....know it's just no use
When all your lies become your truths
And I don't care
Yeah Yeah Yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
(o0o0oo0o0ohh)
Would you tell it to my face
Or have I been erased
Are you happy now?

Are you happy now?

You.... took all there was to take
And left me with an empty plate
And you don't care about it
(Yeah)
And I... am giving up this game
And leaving you with all the blame
'Cause i don't care
Yeah Yeah Yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
(0o0o0o00o0oohh)
Would you tell it to my face
Or have I been erased?
Oo0o0h
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

Do you really have
Everything you want
You could never give
Something you aint got
You can't run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
Yeah yeah

Come on
Tell it to my face
Or have I been replaced
Are you happy now

Yeah yeah Yeah yeah oohhh
Yeah yeah Yeah yeah oohhh
Yeah yeah Yeah yeah oohhh

Would you look me in the eye.....
Could you look me in the eye.....
I've had all that I can take
And I'm about to break
'Cause I'm happy now
(0o0o0o0ohh)
Are you happy now?

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ღ Day 2 : Found something interesting :) ღ

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I drop by one of my friend's page and i found this,
kinda ironic but somehow...
meaningful.

十句很有深度的话..

第一句　　

如果我们之间有1000步的距离　
　　　
你只要跨出第1步　
　　　
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步　　　　



第二句　　
　　
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人　
　　　
才是真正爱你的人　　　　



第三句　　
　　
付出真心　才会得到真心　
　　　
却也可能伤得彻底　　
　　
保持距离　就能保护自己　　
　　
却也注定永远寂寞　　　　



第四句　　　　

有时候　不是对方不在乎你　
　　　
而是你把对方看得太重　　　　



第五句　　　　

朋友就是把你看透了　

还能喜欢你的人　　　　



第六句　　　　

就算是believe　

中间也藏了一个lie　　　　



第七句　　　　

真正的好朋友　　　　

并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题　
　　　
而是在一起　

就算不说话　　　
　
也不会感到尴尬　　　　



第八句　　　　

没有一百分的另一半　
　　　
只有五十分的两个人　　　　



第九句　　　　

为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人　　
　　
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友　
　　　
为你的难过而难过的　　
　　
就是那些　该放进心里的人　
　　　


第十句　　　　

冷漠　有时候并不是无情　　
　　
只是一种避免被伤害的工具


maybe you are here to look at it,
but...
I don't think it matters anymore...

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Day 1 : Still at it

Well still at day 1,
BUT
WTFFFFFFFF
Tomorrow till Friday it's like
3 continuous day of exam.

and well yeah,
I'm still here,
waiting for...
mood to study LOL

GOD BLESS US ALL

Day 1 : Start To Blog

First Of All,
I would like to declare that:
1) Most of my post MIGHT contain vulgarities (note the top image)
2) There MIGHT be explicit images as well (most likely not)
3) Sometimes, I MIGHT MIA for no reason at all ;)
4) Enjoy the fun !!

Day 1 : Start To Blog

Why am I here?
Well, Basically I'm here to check out bloggers
and
loads of my friends have blogs too
so as well just trying out (haha)
So,
I'll start posting some stuffs where I find interesting and so on
WHEN I'm online and not MIA mode
So stay alert to check them out ;)
Cheerio