Day 12 : Sad News

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ok here's the news
the Ex-girlfriend that i broke up few months back
we still find each other for a couple of month after we broke up however

she found a guy that she thinks fit better than i am
i should be happy about it
for her

but i'm have a mini sad feeling in my heart
others told me that she's not a good girl
well i admit that she's imperfect but
who is perfect anyway?

so she start meeting this guy when she's still at my place
first she complain that
the guy is very bothering
and now
she's together with him
isn't it hard to understand girl's feeling?

it's simple but maybe we thinking it's very complicated

the reason she says why she wants to be with him rather to be with me is:
he will spend his time with her, as in watch drama and so on and what i do is playing computer games, i somehow admit , yes i do play games but i still do accompany her, duh?
my mom doesn't like her attitude, yeah i know my mom don't like her attitude but at least when i ask her to act, if she willing to act polite, my mom will not hate her.

but however
she told me that he have 7 cars at his house, this is bugging me.
i usually walk with her for meals and now that guy fetchs her for stuffs
so well that makes me thinks that she's with him due to cars
and the gaming part.
i still thinks that she and him together due to revenge against me for dumping her in the first place.

well what makes me regret is
if i decline meeting her in the first place after break up.
(she ask if she can use the internet, due to her house's internet is down)
maybe i won't be falling fer her for the second time

if time will turn itself back
IF i agreed to be with her in the first place
i will spend my time with her
but...
i'm confused now...thou.

sometimes, i asked myself.
Is It Sinful Just To Be Selfish?

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