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i haven't been sleeping since yesterday
having some serious things having in my mind
what happen to 2 of my friends
one is my best housemate, JL ever
another one, is someone that i'm closed with.
(i will not talk about the second one, for the moment)
i'll start off with the housemate's story first:
today(due to i haven't sleep but local time states that it's around 10.30pm)
i saw him.
dripping his tears silently
i saw that,
i knew what happen.
but i still kept quiet.
he's the kind of people.
strong personality, enduring, nothing can change his decision,
he can't lose, and he always strife for the best
but yet he cried
this is not the first time he cried.
then skipping the emo part where he ran to westlake alone.
smoking his cigarettes alone.
he needs time to chill off,
then suddenly he said he want to head down to Medan Gopeng to have a McD
he wanted me, BH and ST to follow
so well,
i broke my diet habit for him.
on the way to Medan Gopeng,
he seems cool but somehow i can feel that he's emoing
after reaching to McD
we just start the normal chatting
he suddenly broke up asking,
"Am I a person who is 花心?"
he told us his story,
after understanding the part of the situation
we suggest to him to give it up.
imagine(this is HIS story thou, what is the OTHER side's story, sorry to say, IDK),
He did all he can to protect A,
telling A's housemates that A's not the kind of people that they think A is.
did everything to bring back A's reputation back
but what A says is,
JL has poisoned A's housemates.
and that's not all,
A still says that,
JL is trying to amuse A so that JL can get together with B
(B's the girl the JL likes alot, i know it)
but then,
A,B and C belongs to a group where
JL used to be together with them.
now, A,B and C did stuffs separate from JL.
JL has quite unremarkable female attraction.
(damn, i'm jealous, AGAIN)
ok back to the questioning part
(Am I a person who is 花心?)
i answered him,
the fact is,
all guys will attract to pretty girls or rather someone who is better
normally
even thou that they are in a relationship
花心是男人的本色
but the problem is
花心 and 花花公子(playboy) is different
so he's definitely innocent
then he argues that he have to protect A,
even if A had back stabbed him in front of B and C
he still will protect A
now another question poped up,
he asked,
Is his human attraction is bad,
why will people back stabbed him?
i asked him again,
is this the first time he being back stabbed by his close buddies,
he nodded silently.
i mean,
come on
i been experiencing this shit since secondary school
my case is the worst,
i have a gf before then,
one of my buddy likes her
and he back stabbed me so that she can go with him.
i tell him my situation to him,
and ask him,
if one day
a buddy of yours did to you the same thing that i experience,
will you still treat him as buddy
he said yes.
i told him
this type of buddy and gf
throw away also never mind
firstly, a good buddy will not back stab you
secondly, a gf have to trust her boyfriend and vice versa.
if the simple things mention about.
what for keeping them?
then he told us,
he don't know what to do,
i can see that he's already broken apart
he told me that if he can't stand it anymore,
he will fly to taiwan and study there.
i asked him back,
it's only second year now.
and you've just spend 20 years living
who knows in taiwan,
same thing will happen just like now?
but then
we aren't there for you when that time comes.
then he asked is he already broken apart?
we said yes,
he asked how can we know that,
ST said something like.
"you rather make yourself to believe that you are a bad person just for A.
You will fly to taiwan to avoid it.
You want others to lie to you that you are not someone that you are not
and you are not the JL that i used to know"
after listening to what ST said,
JL cried.
for the 2nd time,
he cried among his friends.
because everything in his mind had been said by ST
what happen in the middle of the conversation i don't remember
but he said
he is envious that I am very cool (潇洒)
i know i am now,
but JL just haven't seen what happen to me when things got worst when i'm young
he's just lucky to have friend to give him a helping hand when he's in a deep hole of depressed.
what i experience.
is worst
thinking back,
i even wrote a will (seriously LOL when i'm young)
柴九is right,
人生有多少个十年？
最重要是活的精彩.
well,
i can see that after we kept on slapping him facts to wake up from depress
he seems finally the old JL i knew.
the reason i'm helping him is that
i want him to be what he is.
helping him won't let me earn money.
just merely
want him to be what he used to be.
is that simple,
sometimes,
life isn't what you think that complicated.
when it's too tiring carry a burden,
why not letting it go?
sometimes,
being selfish is not a crime
it is how you can appreciate yourself over something not worthy.
and i hope my 84 minutes of life is not wasted.
and 5 whole hours of counseling.
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LaLaLa
1st June!
the starting of a new semester!
gratz myself for repeating semester 2
owh well
it's somehow a good news
which i can meet more people
and PERHAPS get a better results than my previous ()^^($&#&^%@T#*)^&** results
the bad news is
i'm staying another 6 months back
owh crap
i do know some of the new semester 2 students thou
cuz i repeated my business law subject
and yeah met some of them
they're so indeed caring
maybe they pity me
cuz i'm late for the lecture for 4 weeks and 6th week it's time for assignment submition LOL
so hopefully
i can make a better university life onwards
you know
sometimes uni life bores
but
it's cool to hang out with people with different generation
get to know what are they thinking.
till then
Semester 2
Here I am to once again
take the challenges!
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ok here's the news
the Ex-girlfriend that i broke up few months back
we still find each other for a couple of month after we broke up however
she found a guy that she thinks fit better than i am
i should be happy about it
for her
but i'm have a mini sad feeling in my heart
others told me that she's not a good girl
well i admit that she's imperfect but
who is perfect anyway?
so she start meeting this guy when she's still at my place
first she complain that
the guy is very bothering
and now
she's together with him
isn't it hard to understand girl's feeling?
it's simple but maybe we thinking it's very complicated
the reason she says why she wants to be with him rather to be with me is:
he will spend his time with her, as in watch drama and so on and what i do is playing computer games, i somehow admit , yes i do play games but i still do accompany her, duh?
my mom doesn't like her attitude, yeah i know my mom don't like her attitude but at least when i ask her to act, if she willing to act polite, my mom will not hate her.
but however
she told me that he have 7 cars at his house, this is bugging me.
i usually walk with her for meals and now that guy fetchs her for stuffs
so well that makes me thinks that she's with him due to cars
and the gaming part.
i still thinks that she and him together due to revenge against me for dumping her in the first place.
well what makes me regret is
if i decline meeting her in the first place after break up.
(she ask if she can use the internet, due to her house's internet is down)
maybe i won't be falling fer her for the second time
if time will turn itself back
IF i agreed to be with her in the first place
i will spend my time with her
but...
i'm confused now...thou.
sometimes, i asked myself.
Is It Sinful Just To Be Selfish?
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firstly i label as day 10 due to i have this event in another day haha :0
well i forgotten what's the name of this Japanese Restaurant
but i know it's at SS 15 Subang Jaya
opposite the SJMC Hospital
between Ryu Mein Tei and another Japanese Restaurant
basically it's like 3 ~ 4 Japanese Restaurant in a GOD DAMN row.
man, are they challenging each and another?
or that's a feng sui place for Japanese Food
or maybe they believe that people that was hospitalized in SJMC will go to their places for food because, you know, they said Japanese Food's good for health
the fish, the seaweed and SUSHI!!!! SASHIMI!!!! SAKE!!!!!!
god i want to put a tatami seat at my home in the future
this will makes a home more tidy and yeah,
polite.
i got not much pictures due to my phone memory space going to explode so yeah
this is my Unagi Bento Set
lovely isn't it?but well yeah, it WASN'T like that when it come of course.
i happen to eat some of it and realized that i could do promote this is blog xD
and this is the dragon prawn sushi(forgotten it's name)
seems delicious, YUM YUM :D
but when it comes to my bill...
owh gosh..
RM 400 ++ excluding tax. but they are free of tax too.
personally i don't know why
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So well
it's titled as NOSTALGIA due to I updated late.
well anyway
The why up to Genting from the Awana Cable Car
It's been some time since last time i took a Cable Car up there
so basically it's fun :)
the back view of looking down the hills
this is the front view, Looking UP to the hills
The First World Hotel, I didn't stayed up in genting due to it's SUPPOSED to be a one day trip haha xD
look at the fog covering First World....It's so beautiful isn't it.
the weather here in Genting always reminds me WHAT THE FUCK HAPPEN TO THE FUCKING WEATHER in kl.
well, this is basically me posing *cute* out door in the theme park xD
another image of fog covering up Genting
well basically i enjoy this kind of weather
kinda romantic isn't it?
let me ask you a question:
well, what's cooler than an event of a lost
and in you happen to be at Genting?
Ta~Da~~~
having a chill Iced Cold Vanilla Fraps + Outdoor + Dunhill Menthol
well the only way of getting more chilled is replacing Dunhill with SKLs
looking at this
dark clouds in genting
well yeah, it did rained later on that day. theme park closed down for the mean time.
did you see this SWARM of Japanese Carps in Genting before?
i remembered when i was little, the carps ain't such in this amount.
it kinda freak me out.
just like those SWARMS in Pudu Bus Station. Creeps me out alot.
well this sign says:
Shallow Water!
Dangerous!
Don't Dive!
so well means i can swim right? xD
this sign can be found at the....aiks forgotten which part
but i know i took this at outdoor theme park.
ah...the lover's bridge in indoor First World
it's a bridge linking Starbucks First World across the fake Vienna River
Since I am at a earlier Teenager,
I was thinking of bringing some one that i love to this bridge,
but well
seems like that dream's still unfilled xD
nevermind, for the moment, there's more chances
after studies of course.
owh then
that reaches the end of the day :0
here's such beautiful view that you can't get anywhere else.
gotta treasure this in to a real good memory
hope next time when i come to genting again
this beautiful scenery's still here
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Sorry For The MIA for nearly 1 week
went back to KL and forgotten to bring my PC along
so basically can't online much for this blog
well
for the holidays
I went to Genting and as well as trying some Japanese Cuisine in Subang Jaya
I'll post those experience here soon when I have to time
take care and expect something more soon :)
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林峰 - 愛不疚
收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 愛猜到沒有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你開心就夠
這種感覺太親厚 講一千句也不夠
假使講了你聽到後 或會走
這種戀愛太罕有 不須真正擁有
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手
放手 放開所有 彼此更自由
放手 其實我絕非愛得不夠
放手 豁出所有 還有這個好友
已經 已經足夠
遙遠是宇宙 靜靜在背後 去看守就夠
這種感覺太親厚 講一千句也不夠
即使一剎有過衝動 挽你手
這種戀愛太罕有 不須真正擁有
成全 多捨不得仍然 是放手
放手 放開所有 彼此更自由
放手 其實我絕非愛得不夠
放手 豁出所有 還有這個好友
已經 已經足夠
放手 我的牽掛 找不到盡頭
放手 期望你幸福甚麼都有
也許 愛很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可擁有
My tears are dripping when I'm listening to this song now...
Maybe letting go...
Is to show her how you want her to be happy..
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When Someone You Hate But He/She Loves You Does :
1)called you even he knows that you closed your handphone but die trying
2)envy other people just because you are with the other person
3)lied to you because He/She hopes to attract your attention, He/She still knows about the consequences.
4)hurt you because He/She knows if he don't hurt you a little now, maybe it's worst in the future.
5)He/She is broke but still lied to you so that you can enjoy sometime else.
6)Argues with parents just because He/She just wanted to be with you ( well i know romeo and juliet does that)
7)He/She waited whole day just to get a call or text maybe just a miss call will do from you
8)He/She can't eat without you to fight over foods with Him/her
9)He/She cares for you even if you said you hates Him/Her
10)He/She will do whatever it takes just to see you for 1 more time.
11)He/She helps you to do everything you wanted him/her to do.
12)He/She argues with you because arguing with you, He/She feels that this is the best way to show that i still care for what you did
13)He/She finds you and chat and still willing to be your friend after you both breaks up
14)You said you wanted to drink Coke, He/She refills or went all the way out with a BIKE just because they wanted you to be happy even if they can't afford a car.
15)He/She still writes empty non reply messages from you and yet still texting you.
so...
please be aware of these people
they are the true ones that they wanted you to spend the rest of your life
with his/her ones.
appreciation
that's a good deed
being loved is easy, but loving someone is hard.
it takes more than just words to prove that "I Love You".
From Me To Her, and of course, You, The Bloggers.
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Day 1 after finals
waiting for someone to come but well yeah
still waiting.
Just explanation needed.
other readers' getting urged to know why pps is so cool
ok back to topic
I manage to watch the newest TVB drama haha
巾帼枭雄
anyway,
it's released till chapter 10th on May 09 on pps.
will keep on noticing for updates on chapters
how many more chapters?
how long can I wait???
but the story line's AWESOME!!!
have fun :)
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alright
here's the season
for all of us to enjoy
some to head back to hometown for some relaxing session
some might go for some shopping spree and so on
but however,
my case
i guess i'll be heading back to my home and sit ducks
waiting for the results to release
and hope no fucking jokes of my results that will results in either 2nd probation or
stay back in semester 2 to clear the fucking subjects
*cross fingers*
have fun peoples
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Back To The Start
When we were growing up you always looked like you were having such fun
You always were and you always will be the taller and the prettier one
People seem to love you
They gravitate towards you
That's why I started to hate you so much
And I just completely ignored you
I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long
It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong
I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years
All the pain I've caused you
The constant flow of all the tears
Believe me when I say that I cannot apologise enough
When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love
And if it's not too late
Could you please find it deep within your heart
To try and go back go back to the start
Go back to the start
I've been so evil with my constant invasions
But you made it so easy for me
You always rise to the occasion
I'll always pull you up on every stupid thing that you say
But I found it so entertaining
Messing around with your head
I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long
It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong
I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years
All the pain I've caused you
The constant flow of all the tears
Believe me when I say that I cannot apologise enough
When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love
And if it's not too late
Could you please find it deep within your heart
To try and go back go back to the start
Go back to the start
Go back to the start
Go back to the start
This is not just a song
I intend to put these words into action
I hope that it sums up the way that I feel to your satisfaction
I don't know why I felt the need to keep it up for oh so long
It's all my fault I'm sorry you did absolutely nothing wrong
I don't know why I felt the need to drag it out for all these years
All the pain I've caused you
The constant flow of all the tears
Believe me when I say that I cannot apologise enough
When all you ever wanted from me was a token of my love
And if it's not too late
Could you please find it deep within your heart
To try and go back go back to the start
Go back to the start
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okay that's all for Business Management
i got around....22 hours left for my next test which is
the accounting
and well yeah,
supposingly I'll be only revise on tips given and so on.
God Bless Us
Amen.
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Are You Happy Now - Michelle Branch
Now...don't just walk away
Pretending everything's okay
And you don't care about me
And I....know it's just no use
When all your lies become your truths
And I don't care
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
(o0o0oo0o0ohh)
Would you tell it to my face
Or have I been erased
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
You.... took all there was to take
And left me with an empty plate
And you don't care about it
(Yeah)
And I... am giving up this game
And leaving you with all the blame
'Cause i don't care
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
(0o0o0o00o0oohh)
Would you tell it to my face
Or have I been erased?
Oo0o0h
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Do you really have
Everything you want
You could never give
Something you aint got
You can't run away from yourself
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
Yeah yeah
Come on
Tell it to my face
Or have I been replaced
Are you happy now
Yeah yeah Yeah yeah oohhh
Yeah yeah Yeah yeah oohhh
Yeah yeah Yeah yeah oohhh
Would you look me in the eye.....
Could you look me in the eye.....
I've had all that I can take
And I'm about to break
'Cause I'm happy now
(0o0o0o0ohh)
Are you happy now?
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I drop by one of my friend's page and i found this,
kinda ironic but somehow...
meaningful.
第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人
第三句
付出真心 才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离 就能保护自己
却也注定永远寂寞
第四句
有时候 不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重
第五句
朋友就是把你看透了
还能喜欢你的人
第六句
就算是believe
中间也藏了一个lie
第七句
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起
就算不说话
也不会感到尴尬
第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人
第九句
为你的难过而快乐的 是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的 是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些 该放进心里的人
第十句
冷漠 有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具
maybe you are here to look at it,
but...
I don't think it matters anymore...
Well still at day 1,
BUT
WTFFFFFFFF
Tomorrow till Friday it's like
3 continuous day of exam.
and well yeah,
I'm still here,
waiting for...
mood to study LOL
GOD BLESS US ALL
First Of All,
I would like to declare that:
1) Most of my post MIGHT contain vulgarities (note the top image)
2) There MIGHT be explicit images as well (most likely not)
3) Sometimes, I MIGHT MIA for no reason at all ;)
4) Enjoy the fun !!
Day 1 : Start To Blog
Why am I here?
Well, Basically I'm here to check out bloggers
and
loads of my friends have blogs too
so as well just trying out (haha)
So,
I'll start posting some stuffs where I find interesting and so on
WHEN I'm online and not MIA mode
So stay alert to check them out ;)
Cheerio
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