Day 15 : Am I A Relationship Counsellor?

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i haven't been sleeping since yesterday
having some serious things having in my mind
what happen to 2 of my friends
one is my best housemate, JL ever
another one, is someone that i'm closed with.
(i will not talk about the second one, for the moment)

i'll start off with the housemate's story first:
today(due to i haven't sleep but local time states that it's around 10.30pm)
i saw him.
dripping his tears silently
i saw that,
i knew what happen.
but i still kept quiet.
he's the kind of people.
strong personality, enduring, nothing can change his decision,
he can't lose, and he always strife for the best
but yet he cried
this is not the first time he cried.
then skipping the emo part where he ran to westlake alone.
smoking his cigarettes alone.
he needs time to chill off,
then suddenly he said he want to head down to Medan Gopeng to have a McD
he wanted me, BH and ST to follow
so well,
i broke my diet habit for him.

on the way to Medan Gopeng,
he seems cool but somehow i can feel that he's emoing
after reaching to McD
we just start the normal chatting
he suddenly broke up asking,
"Am I a person who is 花心?"
he told us his story,
after understanding the part of the situation
we suggest to him to give it up.
imagine(this is HIS story thou, what is the OTHER side's story, sorry to say, IDK),
He did all he can to protect A,
telling A's housemates that A's not the kind of people that they think A is.
did everything to bring back A's reputation back
but what A says is,
JL has poisoned A's housemates.
and that's not all,
A still says that,
JL is trying to amuse A so that JL can get together with B
(B's the girl the JL likes alot, i know it)
but then,
A,B and C belongs to a group where
JL used to be together with them.
now, A,B and C did stuffs separate from JL.
JL has quite unremarkable female attraction.
(damn, i'm jealous, AGAIN)

ok back to the questioning part
(Am I a person who is 花心?)
i answered him,
the fact is,
all guys will attract to pretty girls or rather someone who is better
normally
even thou that they are in a relationship
花心是男人的本色
but the problem is
花心 and 花花公子(playboy) is different
so he's definitely innocent

then he argues that he have to protect A,
even if A had back stabbed him in front of B and C
he still will protect A

now another question poped up,
he asked,
Is his human attraction is bad,
why will people back stabbed him?
i asked him again,
is this the first time he being back stabbed by his close buddies,
he nodded silently.
i mean,
come on
i been experiencing this shit since secondary school
my case is the worst,
i have a gf before then,
one of my buddy likes her
and he back stabbed me so that she can go with him.

i tell him my situation to him,
and ask him,
if one day
a buddy of yours did to you the same thing that i experience,
will you still treat him as buddy
he said yes.

i told him
this type of buddy and gf
throw away also never mind
firstly, a good buddy will not back stab you
secondly, a gf have to trust her boyfriend and vice versa.
if the simple things mention about.
what for keeping them?

then he told us,
he don't know what to do,
i can see that he's already broken apart
he told me that if he can't stand it anymore,
he will fly to taiwan and study there.
i asked him back,
it's only second year now.
and you've just spend 20 years living
who knows in taiwan,
same thing will happen just like now?
but then
we aren't there for you when that time comes.

then he asked is he already broken apart?
we said yes,
he asked how can we know that,
ST said something like.
"you rather make yourself to believe that you are a bad person just for A.
You will fly to taiwan to avoid it.
You want others to lie to you that you are not someone that you are not
and you are not the JL that i used to know"

after listening to what ST said,
JL cried.
for the 2nd time,
he cried among his friends.
because everything in his mind had been said by ST

what happen in the middle of the conversation i don't remember
but he said
he is envious that I am very cool (潇洒)
i know i am now,
but JL just haven't seen what happen to me when things got worst when i'm young

he's just lucky to have friend to give him a helping hand when he's in a deep hole of depressed.
what i experience.
is worst
thinking back,
i even wrote a will (seriously LOL when i'm young)

柴九is right,
人生有多少个十年？
最重要是活的精彩.

well,
i can see that after we kept on slapping him facts to wake up from depress
he seems finally the old JL i knew.
the reason i'm helping him is that
i want him to be what he is.
helping him won't let me earn money.
just merely
want him to be what he used to be.
is that simple,
sometimes,
life isn't what you think that complicated.

when it's too tiring carry a burden,
why not letting it go?

sometimes,
being selfish is not a crime
it is how you can appreciate yourself over something not worthy.

and i hope my 84 minutes of life is not wasted.
and 5 whole hours of counseling.

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Day 14 : The View In Kampar

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If you guys wondering what does Kampar looks like?
i got few photo of it
it's just the beautiful side i guess xD

so just enjoy



Facing Inside Westlakes Homes + Sun Set Sky Senery
( The Official Hostel, In fact they are the agency that recommended by fellow Utar staffs)





The Serene across the Westlake and the evening passion




The Houses View Outside From My Room.
Damn, it's hot. but the ice cream truck seems.....interesting...





the innocent pigeon being caught in the act of running around...alone




This Picture is kinda blur due to my handphone don't have the specs of flash light and secondly
it's python you're looking at...
if flash light suddenly emerged...
i don't think i still have this picture to show...
perhaps...the handphone got eaten by the python.
i'm too big for the pyhton anyway. xD

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Day 13 : New Semester~

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LaLaLa
1st June!
the starting of a new semester!
gratz myself for repeating semester 2

owh well
it's somehow a good news
which i can meet more people
and PERHAPS get a better results than my previous ()^^($&#&^%@T#*)^&** results

the bad news is
i'm staying another 6 months back
owh crap

i do know some of the new semester 2 students thou
cuz i repeated my business law subject
and yeah met some of them
they're so indeed caring
maybe they pity me
cuz i'm late for the lecture for 4 weeks and 6th week it's time for assignment submition LOL

so hopefully
i can make a better university life onwards
you know
sometimes uni life bores
but
it's cool to hang out with people with different generation
get to know what are they thinking.

till then

Semester 2
Here I am to once again
take the challenges!

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Day 12 : Sad News

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ok here's the news
the Ex-girlfriend that i broke up few months back
we still find each other for a couple of month after we broke up however

she found a guy that she thinks fit better than i am
i should be happy about it
for her

but i'm have a mini sad feeling in my heart
others told me that she's not a good girl
well i admit that she's imperfect but
who is perfect anyway?

so she start meeting this guy when she's still at my place
first she complain that
the guy is very bothering
and now
she's together with him
isn't it hard to understand girl's feeling?

it's simple but maybe we thinking it's very complicated

the reason she says why she wants to be with him rather to be with me is:
he will spend his time with her, as in watch drama and so on and what i do is playing computer games, i somehow admit , yes i do play games but i still do accompany her, duh?
my mom doesn't like her attitude, yeah i know my mom don't like her attitude but at least when i ask her to act, if she willing to act polite, my mom will not hate her.

but however
she told me that he have 7 cars at his house, this is bugging me.
i usually walk with her for meals and now that guy fetchs her for stuffs
so well that makes me thinks that she's with him due to cars
and the gaming part.
i still thinks that she and him together due to revenge against me for dumping her in the first place.

well what makes me regret is
if i decline meeting her in the first place after break up.
(she ask if she can use the internet, due to her house's internet is down)
maybe i won't be falling fer her for the second time

if time will turn itself back
IF i agreed to be with her in the first place
i will spend my time with her
but...
i'm confused now...thou.

sometimes, i asked myself.
Is It Sinful Just To Be Selfish?

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Day 11: Doggy Doggy!!!!!!

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okay
since even my brother influenced me of raring a doggy
i feel like getting a cute doggy and put in my hostel
but then there seems a problem....
1)My hostel management will find out and kick that poor puppy out
2)what if the doggy SHITS on my stuffs i don't know how to train puppies since i don't OFFICIALLY have a dog before.
THIS is the puppy i have
they don't eat, don't bark, don't pee and DON'T SHIT!


cuddle puppies.
too bad can't bring them to Kampar.

and!!!!!
this is the puppies at Ah Boy's House also very very cute.




and of course,
my subang buddy's cute dog
idk what is this breed but hell it
it's cute. ;)



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Day 10 : Japanese Food At Subang

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firstly i label as day 10 due to i have this event in another day haha :0

well i forgotten what's the name of this Japanese Restaurant
but i know it's at SS 15 Subang Jaya
opposite the SJMC Hospital
between Ryu Mein Tei and another Japanese Restaurant
basically it's like 3 ~ 4 Japanese Restaurant in a GOD DAMN row.
man, are they challenging each and another?
or that's a feng sui place for Japanese Food
or maybe they believe that people that was hospitalized in SJMC will go to their places for food because, you know, they said Japanese Food's good for health
the fish, the seaweed and SUSHI!!!! SASHIMI!!!! SAKE!!!!!!
god i want to put a tatami seat at my home in the future
this will makes a home more tidy and yeah,
polite.

i got not much pictures due to my phone memory space going to explode so yeah
this is my Unagi Bento Set

lovely isn't it?but well yeah, it WASN'T like that when it come of course.
i happen to eat some of it and realized that i could do promote this is blog xD



and this is the dragon prawn sushi(forgotten it's name)
seems delicious, YUM YUM :D

but when it comes to my bill...
owh gosh..
RM 400 ++ excluding tax. but they are free of tax too.
personally i don't know why
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Day 9 : Nostalgia of Genting's Trip

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So well
it's titled as NOSTALGIA due to I updated late.
well anyway

The why up to Genting from the Awana Cable Car
It's been some time since last time i took a Cable Car up there
so basically it's fun :)




the back view of looking down the hills




this is the front view, Looking UP to the hills



The First World Hotel, I didn't stayed up in genting due to it's SUPPOSED to be a one day trip haha xD



look at the fog covering First World....It's so beautiful isn't it.

the weather here in Genting always reminds me WHAT THE FUCK HAPPEN TO THE FUCKING WEATHER in kl.



well, this is basically me posing *cute* out door in the theme park xD



another image of fog covering up Genting
well basically i enjoy this kind of weather
kinda romantic isn't it?

let me ask you a question:
well, what's cooler than an event of a lost
and in you happen to be at Genting?
Ta~Da~~~

having a chill Iced Cold Vanilla Fraps + Outdoor + Dunhill Menthol
well the only way of getting more chilled is replacing Dunhill with SKLs

looking at this
dark clouds in genting

well yeah, it did rained later on that day. theme park closed down for the mean time.


did you see this SWARM of Japanese Carps in Genting before?
i remembered when i was little, the carps ain't such in this amount.
it kinda freak me out.
just like those SWARMS in Pudu Bus Station. Creeps me out alot.

well this sign says:
Shallow Water!
Dangerous!
Don't Dive!

so well means i can swim right? xD
this sign can be found at the....aiks forgotten which part
but i know i took this at outdoor theme park.



ah...the lover's bridge in indoor First World
it's a bridge linking Starbucks First World across the fake Vienna River
Since I am at a earlier Teenager,
I was thinking of bringing some one that i love to this bridge,
but well
seems like that dream's still unfilled xD
nevermind, for the moment, there's more chances
after studies of course.

owh then
that reaches the end of the day :0
here's such beautiful view that you can't get anywhere else.
gotta treasure this in to a real good memory
hope next time when i come to genting again
this beautiful scenery's still here